Since October 2019, I have lost close to $20k on online websites and buying call options amidst the AMC/GME hype. Being only 21 and a college student and not wanting to keep falling down the rabbit hole, I’ve tried so many times to stop and have just failed so many times. I gambled consistently during my classes and lost so many good friends as I would stay home and gamble, this disease is sickening. I’m about to graduate in June and wondered where all the time went, and it’s sad to say that most of my time in college was spent in my apartment watching the Lithuanian basketball league at 3 in the morning, or betting absurd amounts of money on roulette spins and losing all my balance after two spins. I guess I’m here to say that if there are any college students out there, who happen to be in my shoes, just go out. Have a good time. Gambling is becoming more and more popular among college students and I would hate to see more people fall into this deadly trap.My “last straw” occurred just this past Friday when I went over to my friends’ house to bet on these overseas and international basketball games (yes, we are both huge degenerates). We each lost about $100 that night on his account. However, trying to win everything back I had just lost, I went and logged back into his account without his permission when he was asleep and fired away every penny remaining in his balance (about $600 worth on the computerized blackjack). Let’s just say, he was not happy, and while I did end up paying him everything I had lost on his account and my own bookie for the original 300 I lost that morning, I just came to this realization.I guess it made me finally understand that I really do have a serious problem, that logging into someone else’s account could have gotten me killed, and that I don’t wanna deal with this stress anymore. Gambling is a complete lie, and there is nothing else that can tell me otherwise now. I have had no urges to gamble so far since Saturday morning, and the longest I have been able to quit since October 2019 was two weeks. So, let’s see if this truly was my final breaking point.